The Phone Call

Remember me saying how much i missed my mum..I think Allah was so merciful towards me to show me who should i miss and who aint worthy of my feelings.. or infact, who dont bother much abt me... She called me back on Thursday during work.. It started well. she askd me how i was feeling, whether i had lunch n all.. N i askd her ' ok so wat abt coming down here to talk to my in-laws?' n she started.. It seems my side is worried on how my in laws will receive them. whether they will get the due respect n honor (:P). Ok, that is ok.. even though they give more importance to their honor n pride rather than me n my baby.. its ok. But wat she went on to say, i cant tk it.. she told me to leave to home without telling any1 here.. n when i askd wat r u talking about? How can i do that? How will i go to the airport? n she said.. take a cab.. n i was like ? ???? ' so u want me to leave my husband? dont tell him?' n she said..oh just tell him, do a drama.. say tt u wanna see ur parents n all n ask him to send u.. n once ur here dont go back. they will give in once u give birth. I realli dunno her niyat. She cannot respect another muslim. She cant even think for a minute from their shoes or even mine. Wat she said was soooo absurd to me. No mother who wants her daughter to hv a peaceful like with her husband will ever say that.She said if i was smart enuff i can coax my husband n settle in my homeland. n when i said how can i do it alone, i need family support.. n she said u did all these on ur own wat..this 1 u dunno how to do ah? I said cos i did it on my own im struggling now..if u all cm n do for me nicely it wld all hv been so much btr.. N worst aft that, she still can talk abt my old proposal.Well, this topic came up when i said they didnt treat my husband's side well when they came to see me.. n she said owh.. cos i was so hurt tt u didnt want tt guy. I said.. tt guy drinks n lies n even challenged to marry me e moment i told him tt i dont like him... yet u still like him rite? n she reasoned, he said he will give so much of jewellery... n even a building.. bla bla... i totally lost it. i said its ok ma, leave it.. u dont hv to give in.let me be like this... bye. n hung up... i cried like a baby aft tt.. I really duno y she cant give in n accept the reality. I am far more happier in life now...but this, she can never accept... last nite, rashidah was trying to reason out with me.. n she even said ' even i was upset tt u got married to ur liking' wat the fuking hell?? Bloody ass.. even u had a love marriage. just cos urs failed, so?? N when i said..its ok, im glad tt im happpy here, she said..see! ur so self centered.. all u need is ur happiness. tts y u not doing anything. n she kenna nicely from me also. i said if im so self centred n happy i wont be doing so much ok.. im trying to patch up both sides.. but family dun wanna help.wat u want me to do?? I dunno when they r gonna change n compromise.. but aft tt phone call with my mum, i made up my mind in a way.. I dont need people with these kind of ego n false pride in my life. Neither me nor my baby needs them. Good nite.